SAYING GOOD BYE!

Well it has been a month sense we have sold our house and moved. Saying good bye was kind of bitter sweet. It was the first house Brian and I have owned. With our family growing tho it is time to move on to bigger and bright things. We will have so many memory's of that place. Like bring both girls home from the hospital. Followed by the sleepless night with kids. Meeting/making new friends in the ward. Playing games with those new friends. I will miss that house but I can't wait for what's a head. Good Bye old house

Hello

OK so I've been busy. I know it a new month but lets go back to February. So at the beginning of the month Emma got sick and passed it around to everyone else. No surprise their, always happens. Well for Channing it turned into RSV, she did pretty well considering. While I was sick I got a double ear infection and could hear for over a week. Sometimes I wish I still couldn't hear. Life has just been so crazy that I've been feeling a little down lately. I am how ever determined to turn that around. Thanks to some friends and family they helped me end the month off right.

All though life still isn't perfect I am going to try hard to make as perfect as possible. So with that in mind this week I've laid out some meals that I want to try and cook. Starting with tonight we are cooking mushroom cubed steak in the crock pot. I can't wait to try it. As far as the whole working out thing, I've decided that I'm still going to do it but if I don't lose weight it's OK cause I feel good and I feel skinny. So for now I'm here and alive and that is great. I hope that I'm ready for whatever comes my way. Now it's time to go and enjoy the nice weather we have.

The Before

Here is a picture of the before.

Here I am at lets say 155 cause I don't have scale and the only time I can use one is at my parents house. If I measured right the hip is 33 1/2 the waist is 40 1/2 . The plan is to lose any where from 30 to 40 pounds by the end of the year. Which will put me back at the weight I was when I met Brian. According to the wii fit I should weigh around 116. I don't know how true that is but whatever. So i'll try and keep you updated on how the progress is going. As for today I feel pretty skinny and it feels great.

Update

Emma and Channing have gotten so big over the last few months. Emma is on her way to being a big girl by using the toilet, going to sleep on her own and she is even learning the months. She already now January. Channing is teething and trying to roll over. My girls are getting big fast. I was going threw pictures the other night and I saw some of Emma just last June and if you look at her today you can so tell how big she has gotten. Same goes for Channing if you look at her new born pictures and ones that we have taken today you can tell how big she has gotten to. pretty soon my girls wont be babies at all.

Well as for Brian and I. Brian is working hard on getting at least one appointment a week for world financial group. So wfg and his regular job keeps him busy. As for me I'm working on losing weight and making sure the girls have everything that they need. I have thought alot about doing some online classes I just don't know where to began or go to do what I want. Well that is what we have been up to. We are having fun do it to.

Christmas time and the new year.

I know that Christmas has come and gone but I still have this to say about this time of the year. At the beginning of December we put up the tree at my parents house. It wasn't until the week before Christmas that it got decorated and before that happened it didn't quit feel like Christmas. The day that it was decorated we turned on the lights and I sat there looking at and feeling like the season had just began. The holiday season (for me) is the best time of the year. Not because of the presents or the insane amount of food that we eat, but because of the meaning of it. Christ was born on Christmas. For me it's a time to reflect on everything. I love how the air just seems to beam with miracles and the feeling like anything can happen.

Now that the new year has come, it's time to try and reach the goals that we have set for us. My goals this year are going to be simple. Things that I know I can do, cause lets be honest if they aren't simple we would never achieve them. So my goals are 1. that I will serve more people 2. that I will play with my kids and have the best time doing 3. that I will spend time with just my husband and kids no every once in a while 4. That I will take better care of myself 5. that I will be there for my friends and family when needed (but not over do it) 6. That I will do everything in my power to take care of my family 7. That I will try hard to work at my calling 8. that no matter what happens I will be happy and look at the positive out come in life. I know that looking at this it seems like a lot of things, but they are small and I know that I can do it. It might not be easy with kids but I will do it. Have a great new year.

Addiction

So I was driving home the other day and I saw a billboard advertising porn addiction. It made me think about addiction. Anything can be an addiction. It is something that you don't need but want and want a lot of it. Like chocolate you don't need it but you want it. every so often it's ok to have it but wanting it all the time isn't ok. There are some many things that we can be a addicted to, it's how we deal with the addiction that makes a difference. Food and drinks can be one of those addictions. We do need food and water to live but over doing it will cause problems. Having a healthy way of doing things is great. I know that i'm not great at doing these things and i'm trying to work on them.

I feel that there is a healthy addiction to like reading the scriptures, going to the temple, and church. I may not be great at these to but i'm human and i'm working on these for my self and not anyone else.

I know there are so many things out there that can hurt us or keep us from doing what we need to do. If we strive to do the things that we are suppose to do. We will over come our problems and get to where we need to be. Thanks for listening to me go of on stuff. I just felt that I need to say something. have a great day :)

Holiday stress

So the last little while has been crazy. With having a new born and the holiday's with two kids it's been hard. We put our house up for sale, so trying to keep the house clean just in case someone wants to see it at the last moment. Just hasn't been easy to do. I've been trying to get to a point were I can exercise. I'm not going to wake up early to do it when I get up so many times in the middle of the night and by the time dinner comes around I haven't been able to do anything cause I've been busy dealing with kids all day and doing things everyone else wants me to do. I love helping people don't get me wrong on that. I just don't feel like I've been getting the help I need. Brian has been working overtime and I understand why. Just when he comes home he doesn't want to deal with anything or anyone. So i'm still the one doing everything. I'm trying to keep a positive attitude about everything but I feel like i'm almost to breaking point that if something doesn't change i'm going to go insane. Here's to hoping i don't go insane.